Wednesday, 30 April 2008

[Hari Yang Hujan]

Salam & selamat to all.. 3 days break after my first paper.. Fuuhh,, hari pertama ni, sgt2 mencabar aku. Bkn ape, rentetan waktu rehat sementara smalam, aku nk bwk smpi ari ni. Mane bleh~ lg 2 hari, ade 2nd paper beb! Kat luar skrg ni, hujan. Utk merenggangkn urat2 bdn yg dah tegang, aku bgn la, lompat2 sket, then, tgk luar. Mcm best jek, nmpk air hujan, jatuh mengalir kat window bilik aku. Bukak tingkap tu, ade semacam perasaan meresap dlm hati aku. Aku rindu nk balik. Siyes. Mule2 aku x taw knape tibe2 aku rase mcm tu. Tp, lepas lame2 aku hanyut dlm suasana hujan tu, baru aku sedar sebabnya aku jadi mcm tu; bau bumi lepas hujan. Korg pnah dgr x org sebut2 psl bau bumi lepas hujan pertama? Aku x arif sgt tntg mksdnye, tp berkait tntg naturality dan kesegaran. Yg aku pasti, hujan kat luar skrg ni, totally bukan hujan pertama :P Ngan angin yg best, bau segar; aku sure, tu yg buat aku rindu nk balik. Teringat pulak ms dulu2. Teringat ms duk rumah lame tok aku, atapnya bocor, slalu la letak baldi sane sini dlm rumah, nk tadah air hujan tu. Kalo x, nnti licin plak. Kecik2 dulu, aku slalu mandi hujan; time hujan lebat la. Mak slalu gak temankn aku, dia tgk aku ngan adik aku mandi smbil dia kait alas meja. Bila bibir dah biru, tangan dah kecut2, bdn dah mengigil, baru reti nk masuk dlm rumah. Aku taw aku x kn jadi kanak2 balik. Cuma, kenangan tu seme, buat aku rindu nk buat seme tu skali lg.

Tuesday, 29 April 2008

Quote (ii)

"You'll never reach perfection because there's always room for improvement. Yet, all the way to perfection you'll learn to get better."

Saturday, 26 April 2008

Hypocrite.. how would you define it?

It ain't crime to talk wisely, with the intention of not to hurt others feeling. But, in the same time, if you have something bothering you with somebody, talk to him/her, tell him/her about how you feels, just nice. As long as I remember, I learn about the words 'hypocrite' since I was 12 - might not exactly know the true meaning of it, but seems to practice the word when I've got angry. Well, I was a child at that time. People can talk or discuss well about some topics, but not necessarily apply the discussions to their lives. As a human being, it was a part of me, when I have something bothering me, I just shut my mouth up. Neither not to be honest nor trying to let other people like me, it just I don't really know how to say it nice without hurting anyone feelings. I tried a few times, to tell my mom how I felt when she keep comparing me with my fellow friends (it was during primary school), and I ended up, make her angry with me. At the boarding school, I voiced my opinion up to the seniors about their behavior with juniors, and in the end, they told me that I was so rude to them. I found myself hard to tell others about the dissatisfaction that I felt. Was it a disease? Hah, I hope not! Nevertheless, I'll put my effort (and I did!) to overcome this 'problem' and not to be so cakap lepas. Somehow, I learn something from my weakness; hypocrite and trying not to hurt others feeling are two different things. You can be a 'transparent' person but in the same time, show the attitude without neglecting other people feelings. You are not meant to be alone in this world. Somehow, you'll need people (friends, parent, or sibling) to help you out, to complete your lives or even to make you feel better.

Friday, 25 April 2008


"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall"

Tuesday, 22 April 2008

Final Exams Spring 2008

24/04/2008 | 1000-1230 | NUMERICAL & COMPUTATIONAL METHOD
28/04/2008 | 1230-1430 | GROUPS & SYMMETRY
07/05/2008 | 1500-1700 | MATHEMATICAL STATISTICS

Monday, 21 April 2008

Ayat-ayat Cinta

"antara cinta dan keinginan untuk memiliki, tidak sama"

Desir pasir di padang tandus
segersang pemikiran hati
terkisah ku diantara
cinta yang rumit

bila keyakinanku datang
kasih bukan sekadar cinta
pengorbanan cinta yang agung
ku pertaruhkan

maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
ayat ayat cinta bercerita
cintaku padamu

bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
seakanku bisa hidup lebih lama
namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
ketika ku bersujud

Friday, 18 April 2008

Esoh menge-tag

  1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
  2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.
  3. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names. --> I won't do this.. not in the mood of tagging people.. Sorry ye esoh.
  4. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.
The same people, tagged me again. Hey, you there (esoh)! How many taggy things should I do in my blogging-life? *Haiss* [Just kidding]

  1. love you.. opps love Kellogg's Crunchy Nut :P
  2. am emotionally distracted rite now
  3. love to sing, most of the time (in my room and my 'personal studio' O_^)
  4. am easily attracted to pink stuffs
  5. gained some weight (is it some? >_<)
  6. had tried very hard to cool myself down whenever the temper is warming [gegege]
  7. usually believe in my instinct
  8. rarely dressed up --> seriously I did esp to put on the make up [but still, a normal lady]
  9. have lotta things to do (in my head) for these couple of weeks
  10. think I love to read..
  11. have exceed the limits~ oppss,, sorry :D
Told ya, I am not emotionally stable at this moment. As I mentioned before, I'm not in the mood of tagging people. So, guys out there, if you think, this taggy-thing is interesting, feel free to put it on your blog. Thank you.

Once in a bluemoon.. Take it or leave it?

Someone has offered you a very interesting offer; which you might think it won't come up again in the rest of your life. Would you accept the offer, or refuse it? What type of offer? Oh, silly me for not giving such examples. You know, maybe it is a brand new laptop that you ever dream of? Or, let say an iPod touch? O_O All such things that you think impossible to get it by free of charge. I'm sure, as a well-educated person, you'll think the pros and cons for accepting the offer. As a person, I think, I'll accept it* as gift from Him to me while I'm enjoying my life. I mean, why not?

Then, how about grabbing a chance that might come once in a lifetime? Or doing something that you only can do once in your whole life? Study at overseas, holding such an excellent position in the company, getting married, or having a child while you just have the only one chance to get it! Most people would think it as a luck in life. Again, as a person I am, I wish I could do something that only can be done once in my whole life. Insya-Allah..

(*) Whatever gift I've got from Him, esp bless

Tuesday, 15 April 2008

Have you got so many names?

I'll tick 'yes' for this one. :) I'll be more comfortable with those names they call me, depending on who they are to me. Let's get it easy. Don't you feel uneasy when someone you rarely meet call your special name, do you? You won't let your friend call you 'Angah' (your nickname amongst family). Why not? Because you are not their Angah! I used to be 'Ti' long ago. It was before I got a sister. After I got one, and another one and one little brother, then the 'Ti' has been changed to 'Kak Long'. It remains to be Kak Long, not only amongst the family members but also among the neighbourhood and some close friends of my parent. Sometimes, I don't really like it when someone who is not in the family assigned me as Kak Long. Get real!

Okay, okay, back to other nicks that I have in my life. Most of my friend call me Wan. Those whose not in the "most" used to call me Fathiah. They're all my primary school-mates. As I grew up, I kinda feel like making fun of myself when I wasn't really aware that it was me whenever they call me 'Fathiah'! Yeah, it happens many times. Though, I am 100% in conscious state when my mother call me Fathiah. Hah, it is a sign of angry-ness. "Prepare your stuffs! The 'fire' is about to begin." Heheheee

As long as I concerned, all the teachers (during the boarding school) like to call me Fathiah, unless Cikgu Asari. It's quite funny to be called as wannur. Yo~ Please,, i prefer Fathiah than wannur. :D Opps, I've got one more nick. Well, I don't feel like to share it here with you guys. Sorry. Let it be 'the secret of my world'.

Monday, 7 April 2008

Snow again~

It's snow again at Surrey. Quite lebat. The snow kept falling until noon. Mule2 tu, niatnye nk terus berselimut jek sepanjang hari. Tp, rs x lengkap lak rase tanpa 'ziarah' snow yg turun tu. Ecece.. pelagi.. berangkat ke uni, join the crew main snow. Dorg yg turun awl2 lg actually. Sara and me yg terlewat sket. Dlm mengah pon, sempat buat second round tu! Then, the war began again! Baling sana, baling sini, x ckop masuk dalam mulut, smpi dlm baju pon masuk gak! Basah kuyup + baju n tudung kotor sket2.

Petangnye, dlm pkol 5, cuaca kembali cerak seperti biasa. Snow dah x turun dah,, dah cair pon,, tp, cube tgk snowman kat bwh ni.. masih lagi utuh berdiri. Haaii, ntah sape la yg buat dia. ;)

Friday, 4 April 2008

Cardiff Games 2008

Salam and hye to all. Entry ni, adalah entry tertangguh. Date of event was on 22nd of March 2008. Seperti tahun lepas, kitorg hantar wakil utk Cardiff Games. Tahun ni, kami hantar netball, badminton men double, table tennis men single, Scrabble and Chess. Alhamdulillah, table tennis dpt 2nd place and scrabble dpt first place. Event tambahan; ape lagi kalo bkn jalan2. Kitorg pd awalnye nk masuk Cardiff Castle. Tp, disebabkn keadaan yg x mengizinkn, so, jalan2 sekitar Cardiff Bay jek la. Dengan kuasa Allah, mase tu, agak sejuk and ade snow sket2. Tu pon kejap jek. Ok guys, enjoy the pic! Tggu utk next entry ya~!

pictures from : Basyeer, Pian, Kak Siti, Asiah and me