*this entry is not suitable for kids under 12.. language level is not appropriate
Pkol 3 lebey, a.m. X bley nk tdo, sbb td dah tdo overdose. Lagi pulak, tgh pagi2 buta ni, aku xde hati, paru, limpa segala nk study. Lemau perut, otak. Mcm malfunction je aku rase. Duk usha2 blog org la, duk usha tu, usha ni. Honest ckp la.. kalo ade pil tido, aku dah telan dah. Masak aalaah~! Siang td, dah lepas 1 paper. Ckp mcm byk paper. 2 jek pown. Ok2, berbalik pada hal td, ape tu? Paper siang td. Mule2 bukak soklan, aku cam dah konpius dah, sala amek kertas soklan ke hape ni? Tetibe out of nowhere, ade plak section2 ni. X pnah ade b4 ni pown, x pnah ckp gak nk tukar format. 2 kali masak. Bilik exam (aku panggil bilik sbb kecik, kalo besar br dewan, ye x?) tu, penuh seyh~ Muke2 familiar plak tu aku nmpk. Geleng kepala sat, x ku sangka begini. What a big failure, prof! Abes exam, prof cari students lame dia, tny cane ngn soklan tu. Sorta interviewing the crowd after bumping their heads to the wall. Mau x? Da tukar format, x ckp. Pastu, tny ape yg dia wat tu ok ke x? Kuwa dr bilik exam tu, p toilet. Wei.. 2 jam aku tahan sbb tanak kluwa dr bilik exam tu. Rugi mase. Masuk dlm toilet, dengar ade org esak2 nanges. X kuasa aku nk tgk. Kang tercicir kat situ, sape nk lap? Lepaskn hajat dlu, ape2 pown. Kuwa, sambil basuh tangan, aku curik2 dengar conversations 2 minah ni. Sorg minah ni nanges, X-classmate aku. Dia ckp, cam dia stuck ms exam td, blur, tgk soklan xde ape pon terlintas kat kepala. Kesian plak aku tgk. Si kawan dia (yg aku x knal) duk tenangkn dia. Aku? Tolong tengok je aah. Alhamdulillah, even aku ni cam x bape pandai sgt, but I've never been there before. Maksud aku, x pernah lg la, masuk2 dewan/bilik exam, pastu aku blackout. Even rs soklan ssh x hengat, still buat yang terbaik dr ladang gak (tiru ayat nabil jap). Cume tu aah.. harapnya xde la fail lg subjek tu. Nnti kang org ckp "ko ni bodo ke ape?".. X pasal2.
One year ago, I walked out of the exam hall with heavy-hearted, thinking about not letting those stuffs in the exam hall go. It was such miserable feelings that day. Although, I don't wish to go back to that time. I believe, every single things that had happen makes me realize how much world offer me a life
, a better life, even to you. I learn so much things from my past. Nobody regrets tomorrow, because we don't see the future, not even know how things exactly going to be. Thus, most of us regret the past, because ever since things happen in yesteryears, we always spot the mistakes, made us wish "if I can turn back in time.. I'll definitely change it"..
