Malam ini, aku sungguh pening memikirkan pasal visa. Kenapa blajar kat UK mesti kne ade visa? Kenapa? Dah ala ade bermacam-macam jenis borang.. aku x taw mana 1 aku kena isi. Maklumat pasal borang2 tu plak x lengkap. Aku refer kpd x lengkap, sbb aku x paham ape syarat2 utk borang tu. So, kalo org x paham, x lengkap la tuh. Dah la result x kuwa lagi.. lagi lah memperlahankan proses aku nk lengkapkn dokumen2 aku. Nanti, nk mintak surat ngan accommodation office lagi, registry (dah la registry kate sebulan baru siap).. Mati la aku mcm ni..

I wish, I could write about the sweet journey in France here. The main problem is, I am soo lazy. Jeng jeng jeng.. To be continued..

 

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
I know I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

Dah lame x gune word ni,, 'bengkek'. Perrghh~ wa x puas hati gile ngan exam td. Bkn x puas hati ngan org lain pon (ade la psl tu, tp x berkait ngn exam), cume lebih kepada diri sendiri.Tensen siak. Ngam2 wa bajet bleh jawab ms first view soklan2 yg kne pilih. Skali, dah cun setup answer sheets, otak shut down plak. Kne restart balik 1 hal, dah restart, pon ragu-tak-ragu je jawab. Compulsory paper kowt tuh. Nak letak harapan pon malu. Rs cam loser gile. Last2 minute, adelah gak idea masuk,cume x ter-transfer ke answer sheets sbb x taw nk mule kat mane, x taw nk tulis ape. Bila lecturer ckp dah abes ms, wa dah berserah dah time tu. Tp, bile lecturer start kutip soklan ngan answer sheets, wa duk main tarik2 plak ngn lecturer tu. Blah kuwa pon, ngn berat hati. Mood wa tgh x baik ni..

10th May 2009
Selamat Hari Ibu utk ibu2, mak2, mama2, umi2..
Teristimewa utk sorg insan bernama Nizan bt Saad, yg aku panggil mak

Happy Mother's Day
You've given me everything since I can't remember
And I know, you won't stop until I can't forget
I can't bear no more your sacrifices in my hard time
Not even the tears you've cried, the nights you can't sleep
The days you don't eat
I won't ask anything more, other than the smiles, the blessings and the prayers
You're the greatest mom in the world
How I wish, someday when the time has arrive, I'll become just like you
Thank you, mak. Thank you.

I've discovered something about myself today.. but it will take me long to explain it. So, I'll leave it for tomorrow with some other news..


p/s: I'll start my first paper tomorrow. Wish me luck