Dah bape kali aku mcm ni, x bleh nk tdo mlm,, pastu mulalah esoknye bangun lambat.. Come on la wan.. exam dah dekat sgt ni.. bile nk berubah????????? :(

Happy beday to my brother

Aku tak kan
Pernah berhenti
Akan terus memahami
Masih terus berfikir
Bila harus memaksa
Atau berdarah untukmu
Apapun itu asalkan
Mencoba menerimaku

Dan kamu hanya
Perlu terima
Dan tak harus memahami
Dan tak harus berfikir
Hanya perlu mengerti
Aku bernafas untukmu
Jadi tetaplah di sini
Dan mulai menerimaku

Chorus:
Cobalah mengerti
Semua ini mencari arti
Selamanya takkan berhenti
Inginkan rasakan
Rindu ini menjadi satu
Biar waktu yang memisahkan

Alhamdulillah,, puas pujuk mak ari ni. Pasal coming trip (x bleh bitaw dulu, rahsia!) Mak ckop bimbang bile aku bitaw nk p sane. Lepas terangkan seme benda kat mak, akhirnya mak ckp, "Ye, mak paham, ni lah peluang kak long nk jalan2 kenal tempat org. Xpelah, pegi la. Elok2 jaga diri kat tempat org." Dan mcm2 pesan lg yg mak bekalkan. If.. if you read this.. mak, dun worry too much. I'm a big gurl, might be not big enough to understand the 'rotation' of the world, but still I know how to take care of myself. :)

Ya Allah, aku mohon pada-Mu wahai pencipta seluruh alam, Yang Maha Mengetahui yang sudah, dan yang akan datang. Kau bantulah aku dalam menongkah arus besar dalam hidup ini. Duhai Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih, aku mohon pada-Mu, kembalikan diriku yang dulu, yang cekal, kuat untuk berdepan dengan realiti hidup. Kadang kala, badai hidup ini terlalu kuat rentaknya untuk aku ikut, terlalu mencabar onarnya untuk aku tempuh. Oleh itu, Kau bimbinglah aku menyusur lembah hidup ini, agar aku berjaya menakluk puncak kejayaan, agar kesabaran menjadi tonggak perjuanganku, agar hati ini terus tabah untuk mencantas duri dalam kesuburan iman ini. Tuhan, Yang satu-satunya ku sembah, kurnia aku taufiq dan hidayah-Mu, kerna aku tahu, setiap nafas yang ku sedut, setiap saat masa berputar, hidup ini, tidak pernah surut dengan dugaan dan cabaran....

Lepas makan + solat, maka rombongan cik Kiah pon berangkat balik ke Surrey. On way balik, kitaorg lalu kat 1 tmpt yg namenye Buxton. Azhar kate, scenery-nye cantek. Unfortunately, kami smpi sane, ms tu dah gelap. (Argghh~~ winter!) So, x dpt la tgk view yg cantek tu. Agak frust la. Dah la jamned. Tp, makin lame, tibe2 nmpk mcm ala2 putih jek seme kwsn sekitar tu. Waaa,, rupenye ade snow~! :) Soo excited looorr >_< Kitaorg benti 2 kali! Haha. Mule2 tu ambek gmbr sket2 jek. 2nd time benti, siap snow-war lagi! Hahaha. Gile fun! Ambek gmbr byk2. Naseb la tuan rumah yg berdekatan x kuwa sound kami. ---> Dia paham kot.. haha

Lekuk indah hadirkan pesona
Kemuliaan bagi yang memandang
Setiamu simbol keanggunan khas perawan
yang... kau miliki

Akulah pengagum ragamu
Tak ingin kumenyakitimu
Lindungi dari sengat dunia yang mengancam... nodai... sucinya lahirmu

Chorus:
Karena wanita ingin dimengerti
Lewat tutur lembut dan laku agung
Karena wanita ingin dimengerti
Manjakan dia... dengan kasih sayang

Ingin kuajak engkau menari
Bermandi hangat cahaya bulan
Sebagai tanda kebahagiaan
Bagi semesta cinta kita

Chorus

Bintang terang itulah dirimu
Janganlah redup dan mati
Aku dibelakangmu memeluk dan menjagamu

oh I love you
Endless time
I lose my mind
Because of you
oh I want to kill myself
you are the only love
in my life
the only thing there is night
my love you are every
breath that I
take oh I love you

if you go say good bye
but you know this
I will always love you
bye bye if you go
say goodbye
but you know this
I will always love you

어떤 말도 하기 힘들 때
otton maldo hagi himdul ttae
또 그대가 보고 싶을 때
ddo kudae-ga pugo shipul ttae
아무런 말도
amuron maldo
아무런 행동도
amuron haeng-dongdo
무엇도 난 할 수 없잖아
mu-otdo nan hal su optjanha

(Translation: When it’s hard to say anything
And when I want to see you
Can’t say anything
Can’t do anything
I can’t do anything at all)

everyday every night
every single day I want you
please don’t leave me alone
don’t leave me alone
I want you
I need you love you
I’m gonna take you

if you go say good bye
but you know this
I will always love you
bye bye if u go
say good bye
but you know this
I will always love you

oh I want to kill myself
I am just singing
I love you

Haha,, it was espresso actually. I was at 2.00 pm (Tuesday), my fluid mechanics class. Almost every time of this period, I'll feel very very sleepy. --> the lecture quite boring and it takes tooo long to finish. Unlikely today, I wasn't sleepy at all! Thanks to espresso. :D

I'd like to quote something from the fluid mechanics lecture;
"We (mathematicians) produce the problems and the engineers will solve the problems. And off course, we have to know the solutions earlier than them." --> if you guys confuse, please dun ask me. But if you know the meaning very well, please tell me :P

But I like this one;
"We (mathematicians) create the formulae and equations from researches and experimenting problems and the engineers, use them to produce something else" --> True!

I'm not sure myself, how much of the contents being absorbed into my head. But, it was pretty fun finding myself not feeling sleepy in the fluid mechanics class!! Hoorey~~ (^_^)

p/s: I think, my head has been pusing2 because of the coffee *sigh*

Apa agaknya khabarmu di sana?
Di sini ku sedang dibelenggu rindu
Beginikah rasa seksa perpisahan
Sungguh anehnya hidup berasingan

Hati terasa bagai tertinggal di situ
Meskipun tubuh dah jauh beribu batu
Sesaat seperti setahun lamanya
Semasa kau tiada
Apa yang terdaya…

Bila terasa rindu ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau kan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh

oh..
Jauh sekali hidup di sini berbeza
Beribu kali lagi ku selesa di sana
Tak sabar menanti detik kepulangan
Namun hingga itu
Apa yang termampu…

Bila terasa rindu ku sebut namamu
Dengan harapan kau akan muncul dalam tidur
Bila terasa rindu ku bayang wajahmu dalam angan
Dan barulah ku terasa bagai disembuh

Terlintas di fikiran untuk meminggirkan saja
Semua pencarian di sini
Tetapi ini sebahagian dari pengorbanan
Bekalan andainya hari sukar mencabar

2, 3 hari kebelakangan ni, kerja2 makin bertambah2. {-_-"} Bukan kerja2 akademik jek, yg urusan lain pon makin bertambah. Dgn assigment utk society, netball training, coursework, revision, etc etc, buat aku sesak nafas. Oh, cuti. Cepatlah kau datang. Malam ni, bateri kondem abes. X larat nk pk ape dah (tu yg p update blog :)). Dlm mggu ni, ade isu pergaduhan kat 'alam maya'. Masing2 duk ckp tu, ni, org tu salah, org ni btol. Kdg2 rs mcm 'ketam ajar anaknye berjalan'. Rs gak bersalah, sbb mcm aku yg jadi puncanya scr x sengaja. Manusia, sedarlah. Kita semua buat silap. Cume, bila kita tau kita silap, mintak la maaf, jgn nk tuding jari kat org lain, padahal silap tu atas bahu kita. X ssh pon nk mintak maaf. Dah x mau bebel lg,, nk tdo dah~

It was at school, at the beginning of the new year. There are lots of new faces. I was sitting on a bench waiting for my crony. "She's late. What on earth take her so long to reach me." I was so bored, waiting for 10 minutes with my stomach started to grumbling. "Hey, sorry. Cikgu gave us some extra exercises." Whatever... huh! "Lunch time!" Haini sort of screaming with her sengih. After taking the meals, we're looking for the port to lunch. Less than 5 minutes, someone called Haini. "Oh, he spoiled my lunch time." She washed her hand with masam-mencuka face. "Lucky me.." I smiled to myself. Well, i thought it was not that bad enjoying my meal alone. I saw Haini talking to someone outside the dining hall. A boy. I never saw his face before. A fresher, maybe. I didn't know what they're talking about, but kinda weird seeing Haini kept pointing her fingers to me. Well, maybe to me. Or, maybe to her meal? Haha! :P

***

"So, you're Wan." I nodded. Silent. "You're a new student here, don't u?" A form 4 student, actually. “Yes, I bet you knew it earlier. I saw you at the dining hall.” He smiled. “Yeah..”

That was the start. He was a nice boy. We became good companies. I just didn’t really get it why am I becoming too close to him. I mean, he was one year younger than me. Something that never happened in my life before. One evening, there was a band training. (He actually was a school band member). At the break time, he met me, and gave me some chocolates. “How sweet of you..” I just smiled. “Opps!” Someone accidentally, spilled her drink on my hand. “Sorry” She was apologizing with her guilty face and stepped into the asrama. “Wait up. I wanna wash my hands”. I walked along the asrama corridor, while my eyes looking for a pipe. “Wan!” He called me. I turned to him. Oh, gosh! He was walking towards me (into the gurl asrama) with paip getah in his hand. “Wash your hands.” I just menurut. Shocked! He sort of tolong basuh my hands. He hold my hands, and gently washed it! Dap! My heart was like jumping.

***

“It won’t take long. I’ll be back.” He tried to calm me down, in the same time, busy checking his stuffs. Haini was sitting beside me. Her silence told me that she agreed with him. I looked at Haini, “Kenapa pergi tak ajak aku?” Still not satisfied. “It’s not my plan anyway. It’s band plan. I can’t take you with us as you’re not a band member.” She left me and started to set her bicycle up. Everything need to be in good condition. “Last check up.” A sign, telling me that he was ready to start the expedition. I stepped away from the group of people. I was like wanna cry. Sad. Without any last words form him, he left me, joining the expedition group. I stood on a small flyover turn my back to the group. “Don’t wanna look at them..”

“Hey, don’t cry.” It was his voice. I turned to facing him. “I’ll come back safely, and meet you again. Take a good care of yourself.” Huu, cair beb! :O I smiled at him. He held on my hand again. I just let him to. He left me with the greatest smile of him.

***

Wooo jam dah pkol 9 lebih! Ape laa,, tdo smpi mase2 gini baru nak bangun. Aku senyum sorg2. Get confused myself. Cane boleh mimpi gitu? You guys, maybe dun know it was a dream unless you're my schoolmates. :P Here are the keys; I was not mentioning the boy’s name as I dun know what it was, and “Something that never happened in my life before.” v(~_-)

p/s: *** means I cut some parts of it bcoz it was so meleret and not the important ideas of the dream :D