Pening

Malam ini, aku sungguh pening memikirkan pasal visa. Kenapa blajar kat UK mesti kne ade visa? Kenapa? Dah ala ade bermacam-macam jenis borang.. aku x taw mana 1 aku kena isi. Maklumat pasal borang2 tu plak x lengkap. Aku refer kpd x lengkap, sbb aku x paham ape syarat2 utk borang tu. So, kalo org x paham, x lengkap la tuh. Dah la result x kuwa lagi.. lagi lah memperlahankan proses aku nk lengkapkn dokumen2 aku. Nanti, nk mintak surat ngan accommodation office lagi, registry (dah la registry kate sebulan baru siap).. Mati la aku mcm ni..

I wanna update

I wish, I could write about the sweet journey in France here. The main problem is, I am soo lazy. Jeng jeng jeng.. To be continued..

If you're not the one

 

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
I know I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

Bosan sudah mule

16th May 2009

Alhamdulillah,, exam dah abes~ Tgh hari td wat project cream puffs ngan izah,, bleh la,, blajar sket2.. dah xde keje sgt, baru bape hari abes exam.. Skrg ni dalam dilema.. Ish,, salahkan swine flu.. nape mesti ade swine flu? Tu lah, kalo tuhan kate babi tu haram, x bleh makan, nk makan jugak. Ternak beria-ria.. pastu mule la.. JE la.. swine flu la.. nyusahkan org btol.. Rs nak balik sgt2 ni. Nk tukar tarikh tiket balik.. nk duk rumah lame2 sket.. nak ronda2 ngan family.. nak buat mcm2.. Bese la tu, time duk UK nk balik, time duk kat tanah air tercinta, nak balik UK.

Bengkek

11th May 2009

Dah lame x gune word ni,, 'bengkek'. Perrghh~ wa x puas hati gile ngan exam td. Bkn x puas hati ngan org lain pon (ade la psl tu, tp x berkait ngn exam), cume lebih kepada diri sendiri.Tensen siak. Ngam2 wa bajet bleh jawab ms first view soklan2 yg kne pilih. Skali, dah cun setup answer sheets, otak shut down plak. Kne restart balik 1 hal, dah restart, pon ragu-tak-ragu je jawab. Compulsory paper kowt tuh. Nak letak harapan pon malu. Rs cam loser gile. Last2 minute, adelah gak idea masuk,cume x ter-transfer ke answer sheets sbb x taw nk mule kat mane, x taw nk tulis ape. Bila lecturer ckp dah abes ms, wa dah berserah dah time tu. Tp, bile lecturer start kutip soklan ngan answer sheets, wa duk main tarik2 plak ngn lecturer tu. Blah kuwa pon, ngn berat hati. Mood wa tgh x baik ni..

Tribute for mak

10th May 2009
Selamat Hari Ibu utk ibu2, mak2, mama2, umi2..
Teristimewa utk sorg insan bernama Nizan bt Saad, yg aku panggil mak

Happy Mother's Day
You've given me everything since I can't remember
And I know, you won't stop until I can't forget
I can't bear no more your sacrifices in my hard time
Not even the tears you've cried, the nights you can't sleep
The days you don't eat
I won't ask anything more, other than the smiles, the blessings and the prayers
You're the greatest mom in the world
How I wish, someday when the time has arrive, I'll become just like you
Thank you, mak. Thank you.

The story about today and the recent months

9th May 2009

Alhamdulillah. I've managed to finish my 1st paper without any harm. It wasn't too bad, neither too good. Hehe. Meeting the lecturer, days before the exam wasn't a bad idea, huh? Hey, hey! Not telling yah I knew the questions earlier. Just.. pretty thankful. Yeah, that's the word. Another 2 more papers to go.Wish me luck, I need it. Btw, right after the exam, I went to ladies and heard someone crying. Well, it happen almost everytime in exam season, but may not to everyone.

So, here's the story about the 'discovery'. I started to realize something different about my skin less than a month ago. I knew that my skin is pretty sensitive to weather (realize this since I've been experiencing different kind of weathers), but never knew it also sensitive to something else too. I dun know how I ended up having the un-named spots on my skin. After refering to the specialize doctor, she told me that I'm suffering eczema (some kind of dry skin condition, could be itchy at some point). I have no idea how long it would take to get my skin back as before, but one thing for sure, I'll work out for it. So far, I've been using a special shower gel, 2 types of special creams and 1 type of swallowed tablets; Cetirizine Hydrochloride (to relieve the itching problem). Yup, I can't bear the itchy anymore! Sometimes, I can't sleep and most of the time it give a hard time for me to focus in my revision, esp at night. Kinda weird why it became so itchy even the it wasn't critical. And one more thing, I have to change all kind of my washing liquid/powder (laundry washing powder, shower foam, hand washing liquid, etc) to the "sensitive type" or non biological ones. Money, money, money. Uh uh.. Did I say about me buying the prescriptions? (It's something they do in UK) Yes. And there my friends, MONEY again~~

+ My exam week will start from tomorrow +

I've discovered something about myself today.. but it will take me long to explain it. So, I'll leave it for tomorrow with some other news..

desktop baru, gmbr hiasan

p/s: I'll start my first paper tomorrow. Wish me luck

Piss off!

I'll start my first paper this friday. Oh, my! The environment right now doesn't support my mood for the exams. I wish I could get rid of these disgusting people. The mess up kitchen, food stealing, pool-kind shower floor, dirty toilet.. All these stuffs make me wants to throw the temper to their faces! How grown up these PHDs.